I hate being away from my son while I'm at work. He has a wonderful caregiver, a woman I've known since I was a teenager; someone I trust. I don't worry about him, I just hate being away from him. I not only miss him but I feel like I am missing out on too much. The worst thing about being a single mama is having to go out and work in order to support both myself and my little one. Everything else about being a single mom I have actually come to love.
I do not love being away from my son all day.
I know that there are millions of married mothers who have to go out and work full-time jobs, so this is not a "poor-little-single-mom me" pout. I feel for any mother who has to be away from her babies because of necessity. For lack of a more eloquent way to put it, it sucks ass. Nothing could possibly leave you feeling worse, save the aforementioned act, than being forced to hand your precious baby to someone else to raise for 9 and a half hours of the day, five days a week. I can't do this for much longer. I will figure something out but I will not live in this place of misery for much longer. Not much longer at all.
Just look at what I have to walk away from every morning:
Thursday, January 10, 2008
I started work again on Monday. This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I miss my little boy. I can't stand being away from him all day. I can't stand the idea of someone else "raising him" while I bust my butt to work a job so that I can earn a living to provide for us. This is by far the worst part of being a Single Mom. GRRRRR.